Monday, 6 February 2012

Just now

I am now at a psychiatric ward in Copenhagen.
Let me bring you up to speed: (from my point of wiew)
-the world is evil
-people are mean
-You cannot trust anyone
-I am a failure
-life is ment to be this way and this hard
-I will never get a better life
-I am really just waiting to be betrayed
Now you might just think this is a load of crap.
But its my crap, my reality
At least there is still knitting to be done, drawings to make and tea to be drunk
(the picture, though turned wrong, shows a finished knitted christmas ball and a newly started christmas ball plus the pattern for it.)
There is no kitty though and no candels..

1 comment:

  1. My heart goes out to you. In many ways you are right. People are inherently selfish, and the world can be a brutal place at times, but you can find rays of sunshine peeping through the clouds if you really look for them. I have experienced so much hurt at the hand of others, but I have also experienced the great love and compassion of others as well. I find I have to focus on the good people I do know and the good things I have experienced. I sometimes wonder if the talent that we most need to develop in life, that of discernment of people, is the one we are never taught or encouraged to learn.

    I have so many physical limitations, but I keep reminding myself that I can walk, when really I probably shouldn’t be able to given my health history, rheumatoid arthritis and spinal stenosis. And while I do have painful family issues, I remind myself of the loved ones who do care. When I struggle with finances, I remind myself that there are so many people who go to bed hungry. I strongly encourage you to start a list or journal of the things that are good about your life. It really helps me to have an ongoing list of my blessings, past and present.

    I know what it is like to feel overwhelmed by life and circumstances. My heart grieves for you. I hope you will be able to try to focus on what is good; it sure helps me. The greatest blessing in my life is my relationship with God. He allows hardships to come in my life, but He is always there for me. I will pray for you (oklyous?) to somehow find hope and to also find a true friend who will build you up and encourage you. With heartfelt compassion, Nadine