Monday, 6 February 2012

Just now

I am now at a psychiatric ward in Copenhagen.
Let me bring you up to speed: (from my point of wiew)
-the world is evil
-people are mean
-You cannot trust anyone
-I am a failure
-life is ment to be this way and this hard
-I will never get a better life
-I am really just waiting to be betrayed
Now you might just think this is a load of crap.
But its my crap, my reality
_________
At least there is still knitting to be done, drawings to make and tea to be drunk
(the picture, though turned wrong, shows a finished knitted christmas ball and a newly started christmas ball plus the pattern for it.)
There is no kitty though and no candels..

1 comment:

  1. My heart goes out to you. In many ways you are right. People are inherently selfish, and the world can be a brutal place at times, but you can find rays of sunshine peeping through the clouds if you really look for them. I have experienced so much hurt at the hand of others, but I have also experienced the great love and compassion of others as well. I find I have to focus on the good people I do know and the good things I have experienced. I sometimes wonder if the talent that we most need to develop in life, that of discernment of people, is the one we are never taught or encouraged to learn.

    I have so many physical limitations, but I keep reminding myself that I can walk, when really I probably shouldn’t be able to given my health history, rheumatoid arthritis and spinal stenosis. And while I do have painful family issues, I remind myself of the loved ones who do care. When I struggle with finances, I remind myself that there are so many people who go to bed hungry. I strongly encourage you to start a list or journal of the things that are good about your life. It really helps me to have an ongoing list of my blessings, past and present.

    I know what it is like to feel overwhelmed by life and circumstances. My heart grieves for you. I hope you will be able to try to focus on what is good; it sure helps me. The greatest blessing in my life is my relationship with God. He allows hardships to come in my life, but He is always there for me. I will pray for you (oklyous?) to somehow find hope and to also find a true friend who will build you up and encourage you. With heartfelt compassion, Nadine

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